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Thank you for thinking of me
Aspen Crick
Staff Writer
Thank you for thinking of me
But it won’t ease the pain
That I am dealing with
It won’t make this suffering go away
Won’t it limit me in my everyday?
It truly does
And I want to scream at the world
I was fortunate enough
To not have to think about accessibility needs
at my every step
prior to recently
But now it’s all I can see
And think
Is there an escalator
An elevator perhaps
Anything to make this pain less deafening.
Like a wave crashing again the open ocean
And now I’m being swept off the shore of the people
Oh how I long to go back to that beach where people roam freely
Instead here I am
Googling knee braces
and how to fix this
There shouldn’t be a need for diy pain lessening
And now it’s back to deafening
I can’t hear anything beyond the “I’m sorry ‘s you have to deal with this” or the “How can I help you?’s”
When I don’t even know why this is happening in the first place
This no name secret agent is working against me
Sending fucking enemies along my legs, knees and hips
And I’m just trying to find a sanctuary
Please for the love of god
Can someone tell me why this god forsaken pain has to be chronic.
With its flare ups for no apparent reasons and
Not one super-efficient cure and
Most of all a loss of the normal
Thank you for thinking of me
But I think you should give it a rest
Cause nothing can save me